This is harder than I thought it would be

After three months of almost daily contact, sweet flirting, and deeper conversations, I'm attempting to get some space from him and it's breaking my heart. I told him I wasn't ready for a relationship, that I needed to love myself and accept God's love. And yet he continued to be there. He brightened my days and made me smile unexpectedly when I was having a tough time. Suddenly, it was gone. Nine days ago, he was telling me I was beautiful and he couldn't wait to give this a shot. Five days ago, I found out he was going on a date with another girl. Three days ago, he told me "it's not you, it's the distance and the timing". But how can I believe that when less than a week earlier, you were calling me beautiful? I believed you. It's been so long since I've had this hopefulness in my heart. I gave up on the idea of finding a great guy and getting married and having babies years ago even though it was what I wanted most of all. He made me hope again. When he moved on so suddenly, he took that hope with him. I'm trying everything I can think of to stay strong. I've disconnected from him in order to get space and to avoid seeing a possible new love blossom with another girl taking the place I so wanted. I've tried to remain busy between school and friends. I've put my frustration into my workouts and let it drive me to be better. I find peace in prayer and hope that God will give me understanding. But it still hurts. My mind is used to wandering to him; I've grown accustomed to his presence in my life. Severing those ties hurts, but I feel like I need to do it for my own sake. I'm not strong enough to watch him fall in love with someone else. I know I have a lot to be thankful for and I truly am. I just wish that, for once, I could be the girl in the fairytale.